Love Amongst the Chaos

While editing this image, it inspired me to write this...

Since the age of 15, I've been in & out of relationships. There's been pros & cons to that. Ive made many mistakes in all of them but it has allowed me to learn so much from each one. One thing I didn't learn though, was to be alone. Which is something, I now realize, I subconsciously feared. Many people suffocate their fears using various things. But I wanted to try something very different. Instead of quickly jumping into another relationship with someone. I have taken time to get more comfortable with being alone. 

Other areas of my life are also growing as I continuously push forward. But the deep, passionate, heart piercing love that I have learned to create in my relationships, is something that I still lack intensely. I miss having one special person to continuously talk to throughout the day. A special someone whose mind I have taken apart for understanding. Whose very essence of their soul, I've dissected. That person to cherish, to drown in my affection. To grow with, to eat with, to laugh with. To have inside jokes with. To basically share my life with. But I have other people in my life who still remain... family & friends. I'm now redirecting more of my time & love to those somewhat neglected "areas" of my life. Love doesn't always have to be romantic. There are various types of love with varying levels. Which brings me back to my photo...

The main focuses in this photo are somewhat symbolic of my current reality. At the center are the more distant roses which represent my reserved depth, love & passion, while the exterior, protruding table displays my catchy & busy outside. The roses & the table aggressively clash from being such a contrast at first. But the more you look at this image, the more the 2 subjects seem to accept & respect each other... they find a balance. Sometimes it seems that many of us are so busy chasing money & material things. We do so much for superficial attention rather than build deep, meaningful bonds with each other. Just remember that no matter how busy & catchy life may be, at our core, we all crave love...and that's ok.